My attitude sucks. I'm getting it out now so I can shake it off before tomorrow. Paychecks, money, bills. Something everybody is always 'in between.' Is that the same as the middle? I won't blame it on the economy or politics or any crap like that. The more I have the more I spend the more I owe the more I don't pay. Somehow in there is the more I give away. "I will pay you back," "the next one is yours," "I just need it for a little while I can get it back to you soon." And then also I am a procrastinator and I am unlucky. I get taken advantage of and I'm sure I take advantage of others (that really eats away at me)- in short I make irresponsible choices. I can't say no to people who make me feel needed. I guess it is a lack of self confidence. I know that making no corrective action impacts my children and my emotional health and security. I don't have any goals any more...I don't know what I'm going to DO next week or next year, I just know I don't want to be stuck here. In the middle of nowhere...with who is essentially no-one...still doing nothing but ignoring it...or worse, complaining about it. Blech, I hate complainers with bad attitudes.
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